Gently, his thumb brushing tears that weren't falling from Devin's cheek. "Because we both wanted it to be true, even if it wasn't." He smiled a little. "It's not on you that I want both ... whatever the saying is. Both worlds. Even if you pushed, I didn't tell you to stop. I pushed back. And I shouldn't have been."

The smile hurt, too. Warren tugged him back into his arms, as gently as he could, not sure what he'd do if Devin pulled away entirely.

"That this...?" he asked, wondering what the rest of that was.