Heading out...
Sep. 16th, 2006 05:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It was Saturday. He'd spent all day Friday packing, just to be ready. Of course, he'd been ready Wednesday night, but for Warren and Alma's sake, he'd curbed his impatience. But the principal's accusations still rang in his ears. The idea that he'd done something to Warren hurt, not entirely because he'd been unable to, even to prove a point. But he wouldn't ever have put them into this situation, even if he could and the fact that she thought he was strong enough to still hadn't registered under the hurt that she thought he could. That he would. It was likely that even if the thought did register, he'd dismiss it as putting on a good show. All show, no substance.
But they were going on tour and so, really, that didn't matter. He could play the game well enough, and had enough natural musical talent, that tour would give him what he needed. What he loved and craved and maybe the hurts would be soothed and insecurities at what he couldn't do be eased. He hoped so, at least. It...felt broken somehow that he didn't know how to fix. Didn't know how to fix himself and...
He pushed the thought away as he started carrying things downstairs to the van. If he got his in and done, they'd have less to do together with Warren's.
He bounced at that thought. They were going on tour. Just him and Warren and the people who thought they were wonderful. The show and the music and the lights and the make up. The groupies and the fans and the energy. And then just the road, and them. Hotel rooms and wide open spaces and something new to see every day. Something new to show Warren, to experience with him for the first time.
He was ready.
But they were going on tour and so, really, that didn't matter. He could play the game well enough, and had enough natural musical talent, that tour would give him what he needed. What he loved and craved and maybe the hurts would be soothed and insecurities at what he couldn't do be eased. He hoped so, at least. It...felt broken somehow that he didn't know how to fix. Didn't know how to fix himself and...
He pushed the thought away as he started carrying things downstairs to the van. If he got his in and done, they'd have less to do together with Warren's.
He bounced at that thought. They were going on tour. Just him and Warren and the people who thought they were wonderful. The show and the music and the lights and the make up. The groupies and the fans and the energy. And then just the road, and them. Hotel rooms and wide open spaces and something new to see every day. Something new to show Warren, to experience with him for the first time.
He was ready.
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Date: 2006-09-17 02:31 am (UTC)He was leaving all this behind. His home. Wouldn't see this room for several months, and it was kind of daunting to think about. Which probably explained why he hadn't thought about it till now. But now they were leaving, and he had to say good-bye to the place he'd spent half his childhood. The room that had sheltered him through a lot. It was a little frightening.
One hand curled around the cuff on the other wrist. He'd been through worse. The last time he'd moved, it wasn't for anything as exciting as a concert tour with his lover, it was because his parents had finally fallen apart and his father was being locked behind a steel vault, never to be seen again. This was going to be fun. It was going to be work, and it was going to be concerts and lights and alcohol and smoke and musk and people he'd never have to see again after one or two nights. An endless stream of queen and king-sized beds. And Devin, warm and curled up next to him. He just had to focus on that.
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Date: 2006-09-17 02:34 am (UTC)"Hey..."
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Date: 2006-09-17 02:37 am (UTC)Yeah. This was worth it.
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Date: 2006-09-17 03:07 am (UTC)Including Dorian Gray.
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Date: 2006-09-17 03:14 am (UTC)"Want me to carry this down?"
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Date: 2006-09-17 03:54 am (UTC)He stroked his fingers over Warren's hips, sliding them back to cup his ass.
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Date: 2006-09-17 03:58 am (UTC)His fingers kneaded over Devin's ass, up the small of his back, up to press against the back of the van just to hold them both in place.
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Date: 2006-09-17 04:44 pm (UTC)"Let's finish packing, say good-bye to Mom, and get out of here."
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