Heading out...

[killingsoftly]

It was Saturday. He'd spent all day Friday packing, just to be ready. Of course, he'd been ready Wednesday night, but for Warren and Alma's sake, he'd curbed his impatience. But the principal's accusations still rang in his ears. The idea that he'd done something to Warren hurt, not entirely because he'd been unable to, even to prove a point. But he wouldn't ever have put them into this situation, even if he could and the fact that she thought he was strong enough to still hadn't registered under the hurt that she thought he could. That he would. It was likely that even if the thought did register, he'd dismiss it as putting on a good show. All show, no substance.

But they were going on tour and so, really, that didn't matter. He could play the game well enough, and had enough natural musical talent, that tour would give him what he needed. What he loved and craved and maybe the hurts would be soothed and insecurities at what he couldn't do be eased. He hoped so, at least. It...felt broken somehow that he didn't know how to fix. Didn't know how to fix himself and...

He pushed the thought away as he started carrying things downstairs to the van. If he got his in and done, they'd have less to do together with Warren's.

He bounced at that thought. They were going on tour. Just him and Warren and the people who thought they were wonderful. The show and the music and the lights and the make up. The groupies and the fans and the energy. And then just the road, and them. Hotel rooms and wide open spaces and something new to see every day. Something new to show Warren, to experience with him for the first time.

He was ready.

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[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

"'kay," Warren smiled slightly. "Just, you know. Making sure."

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin squeezed his hand again. "I'm good."

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

Warren nodded. "Me too."

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin grinned. "Good."

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

"Bigger beds..." Warren leaned back, keeping his hand in Devin's and grinning to think about it.

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin chuckled. "That'll be really nice right there."

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

Warren's face was innocent, and his tone much less so. "Not having to worry about whether Mom hears us..."

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin grinned at that. "Were you worried?"

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

"No!" He grinned, a little red. "Well, maybe a little. I mean, what would you say if she walked in on us..."

Slowly getting redder...

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin smirked. "Hello."

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

Warren started laughing, bright red.

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Devin grinned innocently.

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

"You're horrible," he chuckled. "See, I'd feel better about room service walking in or something than my Mom."

He thought about it.

"Actually..."

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

"Hmm?" Devin tilted his head inquiringly.

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

"I dunno..." He ducked, still blushing. Forced himself to say it, though. "Seems kinda hot."

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

"Room service walking in?" Devin was willing to bet he didn't mean his mom.

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

"Yeah." Warren swallowed. He wasn't used to talking this frankly about sex, still. "Or that bellhop you liked back in New York."

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin controlled the surprise with difficulty, not wanting to push. "Yeah, I guess it would be.." And heady. And nourishing.

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

Warren flushed again and let it drop for now, deciding that was as far as he wanted to push his communication ability. But he was smiling a little. It was progress. Talking about things they wanted to do, fantasies, that kind of things. It was... weird, actually. Having someone to talk to and discuss actually doing the weird sexual fantasies he might have had in the back of his mind.

But it was a good kind of weird. The kind that reinforced that they were in this together, making this work. And that was a really good feeling.

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin was thrilled that Warren felt he could mention things like that. More thrilled that he felt them. It made other things so much easier.

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

He slid back and lounged in his seat after a moment, thinking about how much things had changed.

A month ago he probably wouldn't have told Devin that. Three months ago? Definitely not.

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Devin wound his fingers through Warren's, holding on as they drove, starting to hit suburbs that would go on for a couple of hours.

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

Warren let himself drift and think and enjoy the drive, giggling idly at this or that, pointing out the pretty or odd scenery when they passed it.

There was something almost soothing about a road trip with Devin. The enclosed-ness of it. Just the two of them.

[killingsoftly.livejournal.com]

Even hauling the bikes, it seemed almost too short a trip for their triumphant first journey. Devin had booked a fairly nice hotel to start out with, just so they could spend that time, this week together.

[firebugwarren.livejournal.com]

Warren was pretty happy just to have that time to spend with him, to be with him. Away and apart from everything for a few months, learning something new.

The nice hotel, however, was still a fact worthy of bouncing over. Just a little. Wouldn't want to abandon all dignity.